I’ve been thinking lately about what kind of illustrator I want to be, asking myself if I’m at the right place or making the right steps towards reaching goals. I know that my future isn’t in paper dolls, and I don’t think I have the gift of produce stunning work that would grace magazines or books. But I do love making images that tell stories.
Picking up my copy of Essex County and writing about it a few posts ago kind of spurred me into thinking about a story I was writing this time last year. I had spent at least a year building the characters on paper, and putting together storylines, planning what I thought would be a graphic novel one day. I had the first storyline fully written and 90% drawn, and for some reason I got discouraged and dropped the whole thing. It meant a lot to me, so I don’t know how I was able to drop it so abruptly, or why. But last week, I took a look at it again - the first time in a year - and everything came rushing back. I remembered why it meant so much to me, and the vision I had for it. So I sat down and wrote a second storyline, and I’m making plans to really focus on it again. I don’t quite know how I’ll fund it (maybe soon I can start a Kickstarter), but when I’m not working on paying projects, all of my time will go to this. Something that’s completely and fully my own work. That’s the kind of thing my soul needs right now. The paper doll stuff is fun, but man oh man do I not want to be a guy chasing an internet fad. And the best part is, every now and then I can have a full issue’s worth of a story that I can actually share with people. As soon as I get the first storyline done, I’m going to post it here and see what you guys think.